Delayed Birthday Post...

I was going to do this birthday post almost a week ago now, but I’ve been putting it off. Not for any reason really, i guess i just wanted to hold onto the day a little longer.

In my family, there are a few things that go unspoken, but are known by everyone. One of those being, that on each family members birthday, everyone has to play happy families.

So for one day at least, i let go of every spiteful comment that usually creeps into my mind, all of the complex issues that i deal with daily and tried to just enjoy my birthday.

It actually worked. There were a few moments when one person kinda got to me and was a little rude but I ignored it and just enjoyed the day for what it was. A chance to look back over the past 23 years of my life, be thankful for what i have, let go of what’s gone and just prepare myself for the year to come.

I came to the realisation that for the past 4 years i have drifted through my life. If you asked me to pinpoint certain moments of it or even asked me for a great memory during it, i honestly couldn’t recall them. For that reason, I’ve labelled them my “lost years”. I spent most of that time, i think, just trying to find myself. i don’t think there were too many big choices or events that happened to make me who i am at 24 years old, but I’ve grown as a person and i think that’s all i could really ask for. My birthday gift to me was for once, not being disappointed in who i am. That morning, after i was woken u with a friend’s phone call, i sat in my bathroom just taking it in for a moment. The past 23 years were hard at times but also really great and eye opening. Learned a lot, i loved at every opportunity and i wasnt afraid to cry when i felt broken.

24th year, i want to make it a good, no... Great one. I’m starting to really come into myself. I spent years trying to pinpoint one thing i loved more than anything else to dedicate my life to, as stuck up as it may sound, that thing is me. I have so many interests and things that i want to do that i feel like i deserve to try them all.

There are things about myself and my life that i still need to work on, things that really need to change, but one brave step at a time.

In the last year, i have lost 12.3kgs, let go of friendships that were hurting me, gained a best friend from an unlikely place, put honesty back into my relationship with my fiancé, helped celebrate anniversaries, held someone’s hand when they felt like they would fall, started to help people by helping myself and facing my own weight issues, stood up for what i thought was right even when i knew no one would support me, I’ve been given a bunny rabbit and started to learn how to bake.

I’m looking forward to this next year, it’s already been surprising and exciting...

So i have hope.

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here are all my lovely pressies!





my phone!





i love this top so much... and it fits perfectly! and me with curls.. i wanted to show people



Felicity surprised me with gorgeous flowers on my birthday morning! Lilly's are my favourites...



i spent the day at Nelson Bay with Rhys..

drew in the sand...







went to the gorgeous choccy shop.. weight watchers?... of course!



how special is my cake?? $140... it should be!



chocolate & honeycomb cheesecake with macadamia nut ice cream! yummo!